musician
i'd still like to pursue it at an amateur level but it's been on the back burner for years, gave my guitar away because of this, might take up drums when i finish degree
happy
that didn't go so well either
this one heralds to the child in me, i never stopped wanting it on some level, it's this latent desire that makes games like Mass Effect appeal to me greatly
now i'd settle for just landing a job where all my research and 'finding best band for buck' skills I've acquired through the years of parts hunting would come in handy and where ppl don't expect me to drink like a fish when work done, practice level bigotry, womanizing and talk about car 24/7.