"Why?" you ask?
...because this morning, my grandmother died.
That's one hell of a wake-up call, isn't it?
To just wake up one day, ready to take on the world, and:
"You know Granny passed away last night?"
What WHAT WHAT?!!
Well....shit. =(
Needless to say, I'm not at all happy about this turn of events.
She was my granny, after all, and growing up, she was like a mother to me. She always lent an ear to whatever troubles I had, she'd always have a cheese sandwich and a cup of coffee ready for anybody who paid her a visit, and her house was always the place where the family would come together and really have a ball. She was as tough as nails, as caring as Jesus and an overall great grandmother to have.
And now, she's gone.
Towards the end of her life, my family and I had to watch as she slowly withered away due to Alzheimer's and old age. It was painful to see the one lively stern matriarch of our family unable to recall who we were, and even more so when she lost her ability to talk. She struggled to smile when she saw us, but we knew deep down that she was so happy to see us come together and see her in her time of need. For me, it was a damn nightmare, not only because you see this happening before your eyes and there's nothing you can do to stop it, but you also wonder if that's going to just....happen to everyone you've ever known and cared about in your entire life. To just sit there and just watch them wither away in front of you. Damn.
So, what of me, today?
Well, I am grieving deep down inside. Having that news hit me like a 20 pound block of solid concrete made me die a little inside.
But I think I'd be doing my granny's memory a huge injustice by staying home and moping about it. As I recall, I still have a job to do, and I'm still going to give it my all, despite what happened.
After all, the best thing we can do for those who died? Is to keep on living.
Rest in Peace, Granny. You've earned it. *removes hat*
In Memory Of:
Veronica 'Bebe' Tardieu Rodriguez
